unbreak
this is in connection with my previous post, well...
I don't wanna say it... but i guess "I TOLD YOU SO" is the best description for what i'm feeling or rather felt when i heard the news. you told me yet again another different story, that you again felt the same way as you did before you went ahead and dove into such a messy situation. I no longer want to be dragged into the same situation all over again. In as much as I enjoy your company and our exchange of ideas, I'm too tired to wallow in the same love-hate situation that you seem to push on me. I have but one feeling for you and that is love... love for a friend. Although there were times when I have already come close into hating you, I still haven't mastered the courage to hate you. Ironic isn't it? There is such a thin line between love and hate. And you seem to know that very well... You have made me feel that many a times. Too many for me to count and to much for me to want to think of. Don't get me wrong, I love having you as a friend but what is the price to pay for that friendship, when you won't... rather as you said "can't" reciprocate the same way 'coz have your own agenda as well. What you're asking me is something that I can't give as well... Just like you I can not reciprocate the same feelings, even if I try... I would not even come close, I think. So what's the point in even trying when I know I would only be unfair to the both of us. I don't want to mark my words and I don't want to sign a dotted line into what I'm saying because I can never tell what the future holds, but I wish that you can understand where I'm coming from. This is only a letter of distress for that's what I felt when you told me all those things. You can't keep on shaking my world. If you're gonna be in it, then... Be in it! That's what a true friend does and that's what I'm trying to do for you but you can't seem to appreciate that. I wish things ended differently, that our chapter was finished in a better way but I guess life gives us pickles when we wish for apples. Hope the new year brings us a better future if it entails being into each other's lives in one way or another, or perhaps be mere strangers to one another, I'm still glad to have met you. And as much as you have confused me many times, you have also made other things in my life clear to me, for that thanks as well. Good luck and God bless! I'll see you around (hopefully when I do, a smile would be enough...)
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loves.
GOD =) || family (",) || friends ;) || sweet gestures || romantic acts || long conversations || moonlight walks on the beach || SUNSETS / sunrise || swept off my feet || personally written poems || SENERADES
hates.
HYPOCRITES! || PLAYERS / LIERS / smooth talkers & the sort || being... judged || told what to do || smirked at || intentionally ignored || left hanging || taken advantage of
calendar/events ?
my bro's & tita's bday!
mother's day!
my debut. 10/10 - tagal pa!.
my forever wish list!(:
true love =)
simple things.
happiness.
yesterdays. (my archives)
October 2004
January 2005
April 2005
May 2005
June 2005
July 2005
August 2005
September 2005
October 2005
November 2005
December 2005
January 2006
February 2006
March 2006
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