unbreak
Why does the holiday bring such bitter sadness? The lights flicker everywhere and dance to the music of the joyful world, the surroundings are decorated with such beautiful decors while I'm here feeling down and sad. I know that this is not the way to celebrate this "joyful season" but what can I do? This is how I feel, this is what circumstances make me feel. Such negative emotions on such a positve time of the year.
It's just that I can't shake this feeling off. I can't be responsible all the time, can I? Sometimes, I just want to get loose, get drunk and high on life but then my better judgement keeps in track. In track to what, I don't know anymore. I used to think that to maintain good grades and follow what my parents told me would be enough to mark me as a good child but lately things says differently. Am I such a bad person? Such an irresponsible daughter if I choose to decide for myself and choose what I believe is right for me? Should I stop myself from reaching my dreams and give it up for the happiness of the people I love? Does love require such sacrifices? Is that the price I need to pay to prove my love, to be what the society would dictate as a good child? It gets tiring being good and being wise. I just want to break free and go crazy sometimes maybe then, they would realize how well I was doing. But I know I would be hurting a lot of people in the process. I am at a crossroads... Do I go ahead and push through with my plans though I know I would be hurting somebody dear to me? Or do I give up on my dreams just to see her happy? Life really gives us such bad choices sometimes, we choose the lesser evil in the choice of two evils. I just hope I do what's right for everybody. I hope everything works out. Help me, Lord... this I ask...
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loves.
GOD =) || family (",) || friends ;) || sweet gestures || romantic acts || long conversations || moonlight walks on the beach || SUNSETS / sunrise || swept off my feet || personally written poems || SENERADES
hates.
HYPOCRITES! || PLAYERS / LIERS / smooth talkers & the sort || being... judged || told what to do || smirked at || intentionally ignored || left hanging || taken advantage of
calendar/events ?
my bro's & tita's bday!
mother's day!
my debut. 10/10 - tagal pa!.
my forever wish list!(:
true love =)
simple things.
happiness.
yesterdays. (my archives)
October 2004
January 2005
April 2005
May 2005
June 2005
July 2005
August 2005
September 2005
October 2005
November 2005
December 2005
January 2006
February 2006
March 2006
April 2006
May 2006
June 2006
July 2006
November 2006
December 2006
April 2007
