secrets of the opinionated; another chapter in her life...

Sunday, April 16, 2006

"Behind the curtains"

Nothing direct about my life has been written;
Nothing remotely exact and detailed has been expressed;
Nothing completely revealing has ever been uttered;
that's simply because I value my privacy.

Some people say that mystery's my game,
that I live to play and bewilder.
To mesmerize those around me with my life;
to entertain, to annoy, to inspire; to envy, to despise or to love.

Don't misinterpret my words as a clear reflection of me,
'coz even when I'm at my most vulnerable, I've never let my guard down.
Never mistake my works as who I really am,
because I'm not shaped by my accomplishments but by who I am on the inside.

I won't break down and explode into pieces, I'm better than that!
Even when my heart is breaking, I hide it beneath the surface.
My tears are beneath even then, I've locked it all inside.
I've learned to fence my feelings and guard my wounded heart.

If some droplets of tears do fall & some things are told,
It's a blessing to those who have bear witnessed,
for it seldom rains in a dessert terrain of life's bottled secrets.
Secrets that heve stretched and multiplied like branches in trees.

None of my free expressed thoughts are ever fully free expressed.
For I never totally lower the bars of my caged up feelings.
All are imprisoned in this seemingly perfect charade - of smiles and sunshine.
A real life orchestra with a phantom lerking somewherebehind the curtains.

I might never be able to tell the whole story. Maybe someday I'll share the keys,
but not right now, not like this. All will be done in its proper time and setting.
So for now I leave this letter that tells the clue to a puzzle
that's perfectly hidden, complete with all its missing pieces.

-gif l.t.

unbreak
;1:57 AM

FYI: about the girl;

-gif_KULET* ;) "respect everything else follows"

female*
18 1/2 & in a relationship*
loc: phils*

to me (email muah!)

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+ love to dance
+ friggin' crazy
+ food tripper
+ pic-a-holic
+ laugh trip galore
+ movie-thon addict
+ adventure seeker
+ strong-willed
+ opinionated
+ sentimental
+ ~~inlove; in a relationship~~
but inlove with the idea of love

visit:

+myspace-URL: "http://www.myspace.com/jaded_for_now"

my photo album at:
"https://blogs.www.friendster.com/t/app/gallery" ((:

loves.
GOD =) || family (",) || friends ;) || sweet gestures || romantic acts || long conversations || moonlight walks on the beach || SUNSETS / sunrise || swept off my feet || personally written poems || SENERADES

hates.
HYPOCRITES! || PLAYERS / LIERS / smooth talkers & the sort || being... judged || told what to do || smirked at || intentionally ignored || left hanging || taken advantage of

calendar/events ?
my bro's & tita's bday!
mother's day!
my debut. 10/10 - tagal pa!.

my forever wish list!(:
true love =)
simple things.
happiness.

yesterdays. (my archives)
October 2004 January 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 November 2006 December 2006 April 2007