secrets of the opinionated; another chapter in her life...

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

how do you know when you're being a meanie?

well, my new blog is inspired by things that happend to me recently. i don't know why people call me a "meanie". even if it's just a joke, i still wonder... "what does that word really mean; what does it imply?' it's not like it's really in the dictionary. it's just one of those words that people have become accustomed to saying,but not really well thought of when said. well, being the "weirdo" that i am i've put some thought into it.

maybe i am a meanie... sometimes intentionally and most often unintentionally. i guess i tend to find pleasure in the weirdest and most random things.. like oh i don't know like "crazy bums in the streets"... sometimes i smile when i look at them and then when people see me they tell me.."'ha! you're such a meanie!!! baliw na nga tinatawanan mo pa." well i guess that's their opinion but to me it's not being mean... i'm not smiling because he's suffering or because he's a bum. i just find it interesting that people like him tend to be happier than people like me. so smile while i reflect on the irony of things. so you see i'm not laughing at him if not i'm laughing at myself really and the people like me. people who are in harsh situations feel happiness so intensely with the simplest of things... so why can't i? i, whose situation is not a shrsh as theirs, right? ironic... isn't it? so that makes me laugh... and if that makes me a meanie by other peoples definition then so be it... i accept, maybe i am a meanie!

but then again, they also call me a meanie when i tell people what i really think (or if not what i truly in fully think maybe i sugar coat the truth but still for me), i am telling the truth. so does that make me a bad person if i hurt them with the truth? then if that's their basis then i'm guilty as charged. cuff me now and throw away the keys because i jus can't help being me. it's a part of me... telling the truth, being frank, giving my opinions and suggestions, and sharing my advice even if sometimes it's not asked for. so if that's my strength then that's also my flaw. my flaw is wanting everyone around me to be happy... the people i know HAPPY! is that too much to ask? maybe it is, and maybe it's not my job to ensure their happiness, 'coz most often my good intentions are mistaken as something bad or as they say being a "BIG MEANIE".

sad that i'm too concerned about the people i care for,that i end up getting hurt in the end. =(

so tell me, how do you really know when you're being a MEANIE? does anybody even know?

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